Confused?

You shouldn’t be! I know it’s hard sometimes, but God is always there! You see, at first I was confused! I kept asking the question, “why me?” As time went by I began to understand “why me?” I now understand and actually accept the fact that I am diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer. I developed this disease through the choices I’ve made in my life. Since I’ve learned to assume responsibility for where my life now leads me, I have no regrets. Everyone handles life different. And just because something’s different doesn’t mean it’s wrong. I handle cancer the only way I know how… through faith! June 29 makes 3 years since my life has changed. God is good! Since I’ve always been a “glass half full” person I tend to look at the positive side effects that I’ve incurred! I have my own blog for over a year now. This is extremely important in my “self therapy” for I’ve always been introverted. I’m back riding my fix (after 20 years of “I’ll do it next year!”). Despite my diagnosis, I’m healthier now than I’ve been in years! I doubt I’d be doing any of this if not for cancer. My zeal for life is unfathomable! The recognition and reality of my own mortality has in essence freed me! Freed me to the point of bliss. My view of this world has evolved into something beautiful! I am not looking at the world through “rose colored glasses” though. I realize that there is also an ugliness in this world. But that, as I’ve said before, exists in the hearts of man himself! My world view is not unique. There are those whose views have always been like mine without my diagnosis! I consider them blessed! So no matter the diagnosis, as long as you have breath in your body, keep in faith, God got your back! Peace and blessings!