#Grateful!

The title is self sufficient. There is nothing else to say. Only, I do have something to say! You see, 3 years ago today my life not only changed, but had to change! At first I was lost. The news from my primary care physician was devastating! “If I were you, I’d start making the final arrangements”. Wow! How do you say something like that to someone?  Anyway, after devastation comes acceptance? Maybe…I’m not licensed… I don’t know! Couldn’t sleep for that first summer. Went through 8 months of chemo. After the that poison, my doctor put me on immunotherapy which is where I am today. And don’t get it twisted, I love my oncologist, she’s the best! I am so immensely thankful for her candor and support. But I really thank God for carrying me through this testimony of mine! Throughout my life I’ve always felt that He had something for me to do. Some task for me to complete  before I’m called home. So I write about my perception of life now. No near death experience or anything of the sort. It’s just one man’s voice in a sea of many. I’m not trying to tell people how to live… on the contrary, I’m just sharing my views of life since my diagnosis. I feel that the view and respect I’ve learned for life should be shared. To me it’s kind of funny… to get a pronouncement of death and then start to really live.  How ironic is that? My faith keeps me safe. My faith keeps me sane. Now I know love! I’ve learned how to really let go and let God! Be careful though, the devil is a liar! There are things that Satan would let you believe are okay. He will make you rationalize your faith! Watch out! Be vigilant! Peace and blessings!