Flashes of Infinity!

no matter the steadfastness of my resolve-i am only human-so don’t fault me when i act as such-each and every day begins my ongoing battle for life-when my eyes open the battle stands anew-something i’ve grown to know intimately-for over three years now each day i fight-my fight for my life-so be it!-i fight-so everything i do is a smack in cancer’s smug face!-i ride my bike 30 miles… smack!-i play basketball for at least an hour every day… smack!-i work out and eat right every day… smack!-but then sometimes there are these flashes-flashes of infinity-this is when the scope and magnitude of my path flares up!-when each and every day i hear of someone else falling prey to cancer-when i acknowledge the fact that i, too am diagnosed with cancer-when people look at me incredulously and say “i’ve never met someone with over three years of stage IV lung cancer before!-when i look up to the sky and realize how really diminished i am in this place… this world… this universe!-how i experience the cold detachment from so-called healthy when cancer rears its head!-my existence depends on my inexhaustible battle-all in all there’s but one remedy for those flashes of infinity!-those feelings of helplessness-so winning the war’s my goal-the fight is long-the fight is hard-but i have the ultimate corner man… God!-and before it’s all said and done He will give the decision-the ultimate SMACK…”your malady is defeated, gone from your body!” Peace and blessings!