wow… june already! the 29th of this month will make 8 years since my diagnosis of stage four lung cancer! my pc doctor suggested that i should “get my affairs in order!” what a jerk! i actually left his office with tears in my eyes! but by the time i walked the half mile home, i was feeling much better because i started thinking about the miracles that Jesus performed! isn’t God great? i had an epiphany this morning! and i now recognize something extremely important! for so many years i have been praying to God literally as the deity outside of myself! you know, like looking up to the sky as if that’s where He resides! hahaha! but even though i’ve heard that God is within us all, i never really understood that concept. but now i understand that He really resides in each and everyone of us! so with that being said, we all have a capacity for introspection. and when you do that you will find that strength… the strength that comes from faith, trust and belief in Him! i am not special. but now i recognize my path before me. i’m not patting myself on the back or being prideful! the strength i have gained is a sign that cancer, albeit a deadly devastating disease, can also be a wonderful gift! and my life has become something that should be shared so people who are diagnosed with cancer will have hope! so this will and can help us all! for people with loved ones, family members and friends can see that cancer is not always an immediate death sentence! as of now, i am enjoying my life as never before! i get up each morning before dawn so that i will never miss another sunrise! i see the beauty of this world! i have found in myself a wealth of strength that i would have never touched without this disease! not everything is great but believe it or not, i always see a bright light over the horizon! if it wasn’t for cancer, i wouldn’t be riding my bicycle or even getting ready to publish a book! i would probably still be working nights, busting my ass to the end of this life! cancer’s changed all that! i would have never thought that me being diagnosed with cancer would change my life for the better but it has!
peace and blessings!
