Almost mid-November, and I was supposed to be enrolled in another clinical trial. I think I wrote something about that before, yeah, I did. But right now, I don’t have to see my urologist again until January. He just checked my bladder and said everything looks clear.
Because I’m still on my lymphoma medication, I can’t participate in the trial, and I can’t come off those pills. So instead, I’m just keeping faith that God is doing what’s right for me. For a while, I thought the clinical trial was the way to go; after all, I’ve been through two of them already over these ten years. But I realize now that my journey isn’t about the next medical move, it’s about faith, purpose, and trust in His plan.
My faith is undeniable. I truly believe I’m here for a reason. Over the years, I’ve seen the lives of people I’ve known and cared about take different turns, some no longer here, others facing their own battles. And yet, I’m still standing. That tells me something, that I have a message to give. Maybe that’s why I write, to share that message through poetry, through faith, through the stories that come straight from my spirit.
I’ve come to see myself as a balancing act on the edge of infinity. I could go one way or the other, but right now, I remain in perfect balance, right where God wants me to be.
Peace and blessings!
