Category: Living life with cancer!

as an infant and child i was formless i was an unbridled perceiver cognitive dissonances  did not yet exist at this young age  i perceived  so much more i was then taught to conform my true perceptions  were muted vibrations […]

there are those  who believe  that life is finite but when you believe  in God you know  the infinite while circumstances  around me are  in ultimate chaos i am buoyed  by the fact  that i belong to Him in this […]

most of my dreams are become nightmares  pangs of fear  run rampant  throughout my seemingly  longer nights  my oneness bear’s  upon me sometimes trying  mightily to wear down  my resolve  my faith  and eventually  my life! so what path  shall […]

the never ending  cycle of life  asked so much of love  but forever i remember  the pain that comes  with my longer years  the faces disappearing  one by one  as their ghosts burn deeply in my slumber  i long for […]

my path is not an easy one  some nights i cry me to sleep  but there’s power in my tears for they lead to knowledge  hidden from the light  my heartbeat quickening  with presumed next breath  the feeling of fear […]

I would like to thank everyone for the heartfelt birthday wishes yesterday. I have learned many lessons in the last 6 years. Being diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer has made me recognize the beauty that surrounds me… the blessings […]

as i inhale  a deep breath  of summer air  the heat of  a hot sunlit  noon on my closed eyelids hearing the sounds  of waves breaking  at my feet  while standing in the cool wet sand  listening to seagulls  floating […]

I really thought that I had nothing to write about until listening to the morning news. Not to be specific but it was a story about an actor that found out he had stage 4 lung cancer and died three […]

forged thoughts remain  in front of me  in spite of  my closed eyes  so i am  stopping the world  to get off  for a long while  aphyllous trees  try to block my eyes  but i see through them no matter  […]

Here it is… the end of my first summer diagnosed with cancer!It’s September and now my son and I must move. We have no choice but to separate temporarily! I decided to stay at a friends house for a while. […]

So now my son and I have a reprieve! This was a blessing because I really had much more pressing issues! My son and I are extremely close. He took my diagnosis hard! But he has supported me till the […]

So now, here I am, sixty years old and for the first time in my life, diagnosed with a chronic illness! But that’s not the half of it! At the same time this is happening, my son and I are […]

running from infinity  is tiresome  how can you  actually save time? the diegesis  of my life  constantly falters  my tears  fall into oblivion  never to be noticed  you can’t see  the pain  behind my eyes  so i run away  to […]

i live with 2 distinct energies within that wax and wane the one that i feed more is in charge  but adversity makes me grow! so i am not afraid to show my vulnerability  coming to terms with my obligation […]