{"id":1571,"date":"2020-04-18T09:27:18","date_gmt":"2020-04-18T13:27:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/?p=1571"},"modified":"2020-04-18T09:27:18","modified_gmt":"2020-04-18T13:27:18","slug":"so-many-years","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/index.php\/2020\/04\/18\/so-many-years\/","title":{"rendered":"so many years&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">i see my life coming to haven<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">going there all but once&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">so long a journey to travel&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">so long a journey to travel, exclusively&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">getting used to this life&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">i never worry&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">i never truly care&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">i can\u2019t really remember the way&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">i used to be&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">what IS that thing called life?&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">where is MY turn!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">has it been that long&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">i never got used to flowing through my mind by myself&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">i know sometimes someone is missing&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">but i can\u2019t feel anything anymore&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">am i supposed to?&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Peace and blessings! 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