{"id":1804,"date":"2021-04-21T16:50:40","date_gmt":"2021-04-21T20:50:40","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/?p=1804"},"modified":"2021-04-21T16:59:53","modified_gmt":"2021-04-21T20:59:53","slug":"a-current-curse","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/index.php\/2021\/04\/21\/a-current-curse\/","title":{"rendered":"a current curse&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">at first a curse<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">and visions of death <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">question of how close <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">the end really is <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">cancer leaves people <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">literally breathless <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">my next steps <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">were taken blindly <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">each decision is basically <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">an educated guess<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">hey&#8230; WTF!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">never had cancer before <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">for me it is<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">six years later!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">isn\u2019t God great?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">but here\u2019s the crux<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">of my situation <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">for all intents <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">and purposes <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">due to the current <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">transformation of my <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">perception <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">this diagnosis has<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">opened me up <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">to the new world <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">i now live in <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">peace and harmony <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">the world has<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">shown its beauty <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">my senses are <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">overwhelmed <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">it\u2019s hard to <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">make others see<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">to recognize the <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">reality of mortality <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">to enjoy no matter <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">whatever <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">not to live life <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">afraid anymore <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">to truly trust <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">in the Lord <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">keep in faith!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Peace and blessings!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>at first a curse and visions of death question of how close the end really is cancer leaves people literally breathless my next steps were taken blindly each decision is basically an educated guess hey&#8230; WTF! never had cancer before [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1804","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-living-life-with-cancer"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p8zBYf-t6","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":2572,"url":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/index.php\/2026\/06\/29\/eleven-years\/","url_meta":{"origin":1804,"position":0},"title":"ELEVEN YEARS!","author":"Michael","date":"June 29, 2026","format":false,"excerpt":"Eleven years ago today, I received what I believed at the time was a death sentence: Stage IV lung cancer. 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