{"id":2014,"date":"2022-04-19T13:27:32","date_gmt":"2022-04-19T17:27:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/?p=2014"},"modified":"2022-04-19T13:27:32","modified_gmt":"2022-04-19T17:27:32","slug":"add-will","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/index.php\/2022\/04\/19\/add-will\/","title":{"rendered":"add will\u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

as my tears run<\/p>\n\n\n\n

not only for pain <\/p>\n\n\n\n

but for the loneliness <\/p>\n\n\n\n

that now lives <\/p>\n\n\n\n

within my life <\/p>\n\n\n\n

the constant sounds <\/p>\n\n\n\n

of no other voice\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

no other voice <\/p>\n\n\n\n

except my own<\/p>\n\n\n\n

living in my head <\/p>\n\n\n\n

where i scream <\/p>\n\n\n\n

extemporaneously <\/p>\n\n\n\n

when i can\u2019t recognize <\/p>\n\n\n\n

judgement<\/p>\n\n\n\n

i absquatulate!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

now i remain<\/p>\n\n\n\n

sangfroid throughout <\/p>\n\n\n\n

my diagnosis!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

i am happy! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

i am at peace!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

i am a child <\/p>\n\n\n\n

of the Almighty!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Peace and blessings!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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as my tears run not only for pain  but for the loneliness  that now lives  within my life  the constant sounds  of no other voice\u2026 no other voice  except my own living in my head  where i scream  extemporaneously  when […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2014","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-living-life-with-cancer"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p8zBYf-wu","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":2574,"url":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/index.php\/2026\/07\/03\/talking-only-to-the-wind\/","url_meta":{"origin":2014,"position":0},"title":"talking only to the wind","author":"Michael","date":"July 3, 2026","format":false,"excerpt":"when riding in the parktalking only to the windi require no voice to answerquestions that live within how many sunrises are left?how will my surgery go?what is next to see?will the seeds i\u2019ve planted grow? though grateful, purpose i still craveas time spins toward this waiting graveforever waning while i\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Living life with cancer!"","block_context":{"text":"Living life with cancer!","link":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/index.php\/category\/living-life-with-cancer\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/walkingdeadman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/IMG_9024-scaled.jpeg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/walkingdeadman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/IMG_9024-scaled.jpeg?resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/walkingdeadman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/IMG_9024-scaled.jpeg?resize=525%2C300 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/walkingdeadman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/IMG_9024-scaled.jpeg?resize=700%2C400 2x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/walkingdeadman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/IMG_9024-scaled.jpeg?resize=1050%2C600 3x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/walkingdeadman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/IMG_9024-scaled.jpeg?resize=1400%2C800 4x"},"classes":[]},{"id":2560,"url":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/index.php\/2026\/05\/29\/havent-posted-lately\/","url_meta":{"origin":2014,"position":1},"title":"HAVEN\u2019T POSTED LATELY!","author":"Michael","date":"May 29, 2026","format":false,"excerpt":"I have not been posting lately for a very simple reason. 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