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Almost mid-November, and I was supposed to be enrolled in another clinical trial. I think I wrote something about that before, yeah, I did. But right now, I don\u2019t have to see my urologist again until January. He just checked my bladder and said everything looks clear.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Because I\u2019m still on my lymphoma medication, I can\u2019t participate in the trial, and I can\u2019t come off those pills. So instead, I\u2019m just keeping faith that God is doing what\u2019s right for me. For a while, I thought the clinical trial was the way to go; after all, I\u2019ve been through two of them already over these ten years. But I realize now that my journey isn\u2019t about the next medical move, it\u2019s about faith, purpose, and trust in His plan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My faith is undeniable. I truly believe I\u2019m here for a reason. Over the years, I\u2019ve seen the lives of people I\u2019ve known and cared about take different turns, some no longer here, others facing their own battles. And yet, I\u2019m still standing. That tells me something, that I have a message to give. Maybe that\u2019s why I write, to share that message through poetry, through faith, through the stories that come straight from my spirit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019ve come to see myself as a balancing act on the edge of infinity. I could go one way or the other, but right now, I remain in perfect balance, right where God wants me to be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Peace and blessings!<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n

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