my fear is assailed by my hope<\/p>\n
no longer are my nightmares valid<\/p>\n
reasoning with life is a fallacy<\/p>\n
my heart doesn\u2019t \u00a0experience hatred<\/p>\n
the strength of conviction<\/p>\n
has reinforced my soul<\/p>\n
who could judge me?<\/p>\n
only the Almighty can<\/p>\n
what sense does life make?<\/p>\n
what purpose does life serve?<\/p>\n
themes of ages upon ages<\/p>\n
we desire this knowledge<\/p>\n
but do we even deserve it?<\/p>\n
my perception is altered<\/p>\n
and for that i am grateful<\/p>\n
life has new meaning<\/p>\n
i approach it different now<\/p>\n
in me there resides no judgment<\/p>\n
my heart is filled with peace<\/p>\n
my life has blossomed<\/p>\n
into a beautiful day<\/p>\n
no matter whatever it will not change!<\/p>\n
unbending faith is now my credo!<\/p>\n
and I thank God for that!<\/p>\n
Peace and blessings!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
my fear is assailed by my hope no longer are my nightmares valid reasoning with life is a fallacy my heart doesn\u2019t \u00a0experience hatred the strength of conviction has reinforced my soul who could judge me? only the Almighty can […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-566","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-living-life-with-cancer"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p8zBYf-98","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":2562,"url":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/index.php\/2026\/06\/01\/to-turn-a-blind-eye\/","url_meta":{"origin":566,"position":0},"title":"to turn a blind eye!","author":"Michael","date":"June 1, 2026","format":false,"excerpt":"it is easy to see\u2028 anomalous living is never free our heads turn away\u2028 from any trouble \u2028even when we look \u2028we pretend it is double lives are so preciouswhile time is a blurtrying to rememberthe youth that we were but as fate would have itour bodies do not lasttry\u2026","rel":"","context":"In "Living life with cancer!"","block_context":{"text":"Living life with cancer!","link":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/index.php\/category\/living-life-with-cancer\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/walkingdeadman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/01\/IMG_3610_Original.jpeg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/walkingdeadman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/01\/IMG_3610_Original.jpeg?resize=350%2C200&ssl=1 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/walkingdeadman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/01\/IMG_3610_Original.jpeg?resize=525%2C300&ssl=1 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/walkingdeadman.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/01\/IMG_3610_Original.jpeg?resize=700%2C400&ssl=1 2x"},"classes":[]},{"id":2574,"url":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/index.php\/2026\/07\/03\/talking-only-to-the-wind\/","url_meta":{"origin":566,"position":1},"title":"talking only to the wind","author":"Michael","date":"July 3, 2026","format":false,"excerpt":"when riding in the parktalking only to the windi require no voice to answerquestions that live within how many sunrises are left?how will my surgery go?what is next to see?will the seeds i\u2019ve planted grow? 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