{"id":689,"date":"2018-06-15T11:24:30","date_gmt":"2018-06-15T15:24:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/?p=689"},"modified":"2018-06-15T11:24:31","modified_gmt":"2018-06-15T15:24:31","slug":"i-bend-i-dont-break","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/walkingdeadman.com\/index.php\/2018\/06\/15\/i-bend-i-dont-break\/","title":{"rendered":"I Bend… I Don\u2019t Break!"},"content":{"rendered":"

As my 3rd anniversary of being diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer draws near I noticed how I now handle things. Throughout my life I\u2019ve never considered myself to be a fighter. Now I have no <\/em>choice. My life has evolved into a “knock down, drag out” never ending battle! Each and every second of my remaining existence I have to fight for. I didn’t realize my capabilities until the manifestation of cancer in my life. Be that as it may, cancer has definitely <\/em>altered and changed my perceptions of life and how to live it. My resilience has multiplied exponentially! The everyday problems that once plagued me no longer have effect. I’m not saying that the problems aren’t there, it’s just that they don’t affect me like before. For example, I am in the process of finding an apartment. This will be the seventh time I’m moving since my diagnosis. My faith in God lightens my burden. He girds my soul. Even though I have to move by July 1st, I’m not worried. God is working in the background for me! Something will come up. I have faith. During this testimony of mine my faith has become a juggernaut! So I walk in faith! Nothing else is more important. When I break it all down and see the big picture, being diagnosed with cancer, for me, was a blessing in disguise! I wouldn’t be doing any of the things that I now do. Everyone should see life as I now see it. It’s a shame that I had to be given a death sentence to really live! <\/em>Peace and blessings!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

As my 3rd anniversary of being diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer draws near I noticed how I now handle things. Throughout my life I\u2019ve never considered myself to be a fighter. Now I have no choice. 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It was not. Ironically, I walked out of that doctor\u2019s office with my head held high. 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